Massive explosion all over your face.. AHHH

Time to vent my frustration to you google  blogger because I don't want to bother people with my issues.
HERE I GOOOOOOOOO

Well first of all I'd like to say fuck you to everything that pissed me off today.
1. Step mom
2. Wild Hog
3. Black dude that harasses me
4. Step mom
5. Some random dude that spilled his drink on me
Ok so it's not a whole lot on that list but they all contribute a fair share as to why I want to kick puppies. (and I love animals)

Wild Hog is just a bitch and completely fucked up my schedule for the next 3 weeks.  The one time they decide to not procrastinate and do their job. I wish they hadn't. Plus this dude I work with went completely overboard with harassing me today.  So what did I do.  I freaked the fuck out on him and I got into trouble.  Enough of that.
I called my little sister today to try and get my xbox back.  Did I get it?  I'll give you a hint.  No.  I'm ok with that now because I found out what's been going on in her life recently.  She told me how my step mom has been bad mouthing the shit out of me to everyone in warroad that has anything to do with me.  Also my little sisters told danielle that they dont remember who I am.  FUCKING SWEET!  My little sister kaiya said " My mommy told me that you guys need to buy a new family."  WTF DUDE?  I can only imagine what Cindy is telling a 6 and 4 year old.  Horrible.  My dad is also cheating on cindy.  BIG SURPRISE.  I cant even write everything down.  It's just ridiculous.  I'm just waiting for everything to start exploding in everyones face.  All I know is that I am done with that side of my family.  It's too much to try and love them when they despise everything that I am.  Am I really that bad of a person?  I'm sick of looking for approval.  I'm sick of wishing that cindy would call me.  I'm sick of missing them.  I'm sick of them not caring if I exist.  I can't do this anymore.  It hurts too much.  Just when I thought I might be getting somewhere with all of this.  I get stabbed in the heart.  Well.. I'm done.  (sorry im upset so my grammer and punctuations is completely horrible..whatev)

You say that I'll never change but what the fuck do you know.  I'll burn it all to the ground before I let you in. I cant forgive you now. I remember everything.


special thank yous for making my day better go out to...
1. Pizza hut for giving me free stuff
2. My old co workers at pizza hut that all gave me a hug
3. Lady at the bank for cashing my check even tho my id is gone
4. Danielle for being the only one knowing what Im going through
5. BIG ONE to Ryan for just being himself. I dont feel as alone with him. :)
6. Diet pepsi..for quenching my thirst.
Thank you