Long time, no type.

Why hello again.  It's been awhile since I've written on here.  I keep forgetting about it. haha

I was reading through my old posts and they make me laugh.  That's one thing I definitely love about myself. even in my sad/distressed posts; I still throw something funny in there.  Always trying to lighten the mood. haha I have really come in to my own the last month.  I feel like I have grown up quite a bit.  It's a great feeling.  I love this new positive and happy attitude I have adapted.  I've really learned to love myself and be completely ok with who I really am.  No more hiding or pretending. I've fully embraced every aspect of me. :D  I've learned to completely love yourself and be who you are. You have to accept all of your negative qualities and we all have them.  I know my faults and I work hard each day to try and better them.  I am not perfect and I never will be BUT I am an awesome human being.  I feel so inspired each day to be the best person I can be. FRICK YEH... epiphany..brain cum everywhere.

ps:  I would like to shout out to a few people right meow

Gabe-  You're my best friend and I couldn't get throught half the shit I've been through if you hadn't been there.  It's nice knowing that no matter what happens or what I do, you won't run away screaming. So, thanks for that!

Ryan-  I don't know what you do to me but you motivate me to better myself and make me want to be a better person and because of all the douchy things you have done to me.  I have had a lot of personal epiphany's. You make me a stronger person.  I heart you.

Danielle-  You're my little sister and I love you.  You were there when I needed you most and I will always appreciate that.

Cindy-  Although we haven't spoken in over a year.  You are a huge inspiration to me; to never be the person you are.  You have done a lot for me and I still appreciate that. BUT  it must suck to live a life full of lies.  Pretending to be someone you're not. I couldn't imagine how unhappy you are.  For the longest time I wanted your forgiveness and for you to be there for me.  I don't even care anymore. If you can't love me for all that I am the good, great, bad, and worse parts of me. I don't need you in my life.  I feel sorry for you.

Grandpa-  For always being trusty and believing in me. When nobody else in our family does.  You are my hero and the greatest man I know.  I love you gramps.

Grandma-  I know you aren't here anymore but I feel you with me in everything that I do.  I never feel alone for long because I know you are sitting right next to me with your arm around me.  You help me push through the hard things because I know things always get better.  I try be how strong I knew you to be.  I got my perserverance and strength from the woman you were and still are to me.  I love you and miss you so much gma.