Nerves.
I'm so nervous right now. It will be the first day Ive seen josh in almost two weeks and we will be spending the entire day together. It's damiens birthday party out at base and then it's bucks. I'm excited but worried too. What if he flirts with other girls at the bar. I will lose my mind. I will probably have to leave if that's how it's going to be. I'm just going to try enjoy myself and not pay much attention to him. Plan of attack: Make it look like I'm just fine and happy without him in my life. Tonight for me is a make it or break it kind of deal. If we can't get through today. I'm done and moving on and never looking back. Uff. My chest is getting really tight and my minds racing. I can't stop moving. I feel like I have ADD right now. Wish me luck for tonight everyone and lets hope my emotions get the better of me and I dont get too drunk and make a fool of myself. Fingers crossed!
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