The Pursuit of Happiness.

Do you ever wonder when your going to fall in love, snag the right job, or just have everything you need to be conent. We all do.  Everybody has different wants and needs.  What have you been looking for your whole life?   I have a lot of time to think and a lot of time to ask myself many questions and search for the answers.  For me personally; the one thing that I've always wanted out of life was to have someone to love and love me in return.  I'm the sappy romantic type.  I've been daydreaming ever since I was little about "prince charming."  Hell, I started designing my own wedding dress when I was 5.  Love has always been the one thing I've searched and waited patiently for.  I know I have my whole life to find this person but I can't help but worry that he might not be out there or I've already ruined it with someone who was supposed to be my soulmate.  I know it sounds sill because I'm only 21.  It makes me sad seeing all these happy couples walking around, holding hands, and holding each other close.  Why can't I have that?  There is this special someone that I dated for about 4 years.  I still love him with every inch of my being but I think I ruined that one.  Good Job Tia!  I just keep telling myself that whatevers meant to be will happen.  Hopefully one day I will find Mr. Right or get Mr. Right back.  Until then I'm on the pursuit of happiness.